urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:atorturedxlight inxVINCExble inxVINCExble 2003-02-12T23:38:26Z urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:atorturedxlight:70523 2003-02-12T23:38:26Z 2003-02-12T23:38:26Z I haven't updated in forever.<br />Meh. I'm not about to either.<br />Well, a small one I guess. <br />Tonight: Sworn Enemy and 18v. with Mike. should be fun.<br />yea, that's all. <br /><br /><br />THE CHEAT .... IS GROUNDED! urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:atorturedxlight:69427 2003-01-25T11:28:18Z 2003-01-25T11:28:18Z ... I'll be here for whenever <i>you</i> need me. urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:atorturedxlight:69162 2003-01-23T07:16:15Z 2003-01-23T07:16:15Z <center>It's better to be stepped on than left all alone ...</center> urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:atorturedxlight:68911 2003-01-14T22:09:18Z 2003-01-14T22:09:18Z <center><a href="http://quizilla.com/users/azuremariposa/quizzes/What%20Is%20Your%20True%20Aura%20Colour%3F/"><img src="http://images.quizilla.com/1033783153_esblueaura.jpg" border="0" alt=""><br> <font size="-1">What Is Your True Aura Colour?</font></a><br> <font size="-3">brought to you by <a href="http://quizilla.com">Quizilla</a></font></center><br /><br /><center>Yea, I dunno.</center> urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:atorturedxlight:68617 2003-01-14T22:04:28Z 2003-01-14T22:04:28Z <center><img src="http://supernobody.net/files/quizzes/michael.jpg" alt="Which Salute Your Shorts Character are You?"></img><br /><br><a href="http://supernobody.net/files/quizzes/index.html" target="_blank">Take The Test!</a></center> urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:atorturedxlight:68449 2003-01-12T19:27:46Z 2003-01-12T19:27:46Z <center>Those nights we had and the trust we lost <br />The sleep that fled me and the heart I lost <br />It all reminds me just how callous <br />and heartless the true cowards are <br />And I write this for the loveless <br />And for the risks we take <br />I'll take my love to the grave <br />As tired and worn it is <br />I'll take my love to the grave <br />Bitter and Then Some<br />Death to cowards, traitors, and empty words <br />To those adorned with the touch of rose petals <br />And the blessed gift of forgetfulness <br />For these are your years and days to outshine <br />Push on and soar higher <br />This is your memory, your everything, and the in-between <br />Push on and soar higher</center> urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:atorturedxlight:68234 2003-01-12T07:06:31Z 2003-01-12T07:06:31Z ME <br />+<br />Mike <br />+<br />Trish<br />=<br />XColdCutCrewX<br /><br />WE'LL FUCK YOU UP YO.<br /><br />haha. urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:atorturedxlight:67964 2003-01-11T17:13:38Z 2003-01-11T17:13:38Z the last night alone. HAVE YOU EVER...<br />*Kissed someone: she kissed me /shrug. same thing I spose.<br />*Been in love: blah. sure.<br />*Been so drunk you blacked out: unfortunatly.<br />*Cheated on a boyfriend or girlfriend: never had one. besides, I kill cheaters.<br />*Kept a secret from everyone: yep.<br />*Set a body part on fire: haha that shit is fun as hell man.<br />*Had an imaginary friend: yes. yes.<br />*Called or seen a psychic: haha. <br />*Ever cried at a chick flick: oh yes.<br />*Had a crush on a teacher: *shifty eyes* no ...<br />*Found a cartoon character attractive: dude, jessica rabbit.<br />*Ever at anytime owned a New Kids on the block tape: Haha. god. no. <br />*Watched Punky Brewster: oh yea. <br />*Prank called someone: Haha. The first time I did it they called back and I was scared shitless.<br />*Eaten a whole box of cookies and thought you were fat after: I used to and thought it a lot.<br />*Been on stage: uhm ... yes. in a sense.<br />*Gotten in a car accident: I rolled twice.<br />DO YOU...<br />*Wear eye shadow: I can't pull it off like Davey can.<br />*Have a dog: nope. not anymore at least. Tom's savior took him away from me.<br />*Want a tattoo, and where: lots. all over. chest, neck, back, lower back, sleeves, wrists, legs, you get the point.<br />*Do you have a boyfriend/girlfriend: HAHAHAHAHA. dude. that's great. <br />*Crush: yes. yes.<br />*Do you have a best friend: MIIIIKE!<br />*Who do you go to for advice: MIIIIKE ... MAAATT or ... my parents.<br />*Who knows all your secrets? I do.<br />*Who do you cry with: myself. although I am sure a lot of you have seen me cry anyhow. but shhh!<br />DO YOU BELIEVE IN...<br />*God/Devil: Yes. doesn't mean I like any of 'em.<br />*Yourself: Yes. for the most part.<br />*Your friends: Yes, Yes I do.<br />*Aliens: Haha. I'm not Wayman. :D <br />*Love: Yes. not for me though.<br />*Signs: sometimes.<br />*The Closet Monster: fuck yea man. woo. *runs and hides*<br />*One person for everyone?: Yep. I'm no mormen.<br />1. What's one thing you wish you could do but can't? <br />2. What time of the day do you like to take a shit? when do YOU like to take a shit?<br />3. What is your ideal marriage location? meh. maybe if I was I'd think about it.<br />4. Which musical instrument do you wish you could play? I wish I could sing hardcore. I can only sing metalcore. blah.<br />5. What's your favorite sexual position? fuck sex.<br />6. Favorite fabric? hmm ... whatever.<br />7. Something you love and hate? bah. girls.<br />8. What kind of bedding do you use? what?<br />9. What kind of soap do you use? uhm ... it's the off brand of herbal essence.<br />10. Do you tell your friends about your sex life? Maybe if I HAD <u>A</u> sex life. Hah.<br />11. What's the one language you want to learn? probly italian or spanish so I don't have to laughed at for being a non speaking spanish mexican. haha. COCONUTS OWN! RIGHT JOSH! Haha. My mexican/coconut bro. woo.<br />12. How do you eat an apple? I get it out of the fridge. wash it. bite it all around and then repeat.<br />13. What do you order at a bar? EDGE MOFUCKA!<br />14. Have you ever pierced your body parts? naw ... well, I stuck a needle in my ear once. only have way. my 'rents snapped at me. bah. bastards.<br />15. Do you have tattoos? July 12 yo. woo. thats the day.<br />16. Would you ever admit to having done plastic surgery of any kind if confronted? Probly.<br />17. What's one of the "funnest" things you've ever done? Drove around in Jackies car with my AFI crew/choir. Listening to AFI and totally rocking out with the windows down. Woo. I nearly fucking cried 'cause of how great and fun it was.<br />18. Do you drive stick? I have.<br />19. What's one trait you hate in a person? hmm ... want me to list now or later?<br />20. What's the soonest that you've slept with someone (or hypothetically)? what? I'm not a whore asshole. I don't get girls. remember?<br />21. What kind of watch(es) do you wear? maybe if I had a watch. I'd tell you.<br />22. Most frivolous purchase? eh?<br />23. Do you consider yourself materialistic? at times. I don't need a damn thing but my music. that's all. and my computer. woo.<br />24. What do you cook the best? You name it I can do it.<br />26. Do you prefer to stand out or blend in? depends in my mooood.<br />27. Do you have anything monogrammed? maybe if I knew what that word meant.<br />28. Would you ever go out dressed like the opposite sex? Haha. I have before. Rocky Horror Picture Show. Well, I just had make up on.<br />29. What`s one car you will never buy? one that one drive and let me listen to music.<br />30. Have you ever done drugs? regretfully.<br />31. What kind of books do you like to read? I don't really read. I like to watch movies.<br />32. If you won the lottery, what would you do first? buy my parents a house.<br />33. Burial or cremation? burial dude.<br />34. How many online journals do you read regularly? uhm ... 3 daily but I read like 5 different ones every now and then.<br />35. What's one thing you're a sore loser at? I suck at everything so I can't really bitch.<br />36. If you don`t like a person, how do you show it? I test him at what he claims he/she is. Make 'em feel stupid. Or I just become an asshole and make fun of everything about them. <br />37. How many drinks before you're tipsy? shit it's been years and I don't care.<br />38. Favorite kind of porn? ASIAN! haha. miles! woo.<br />39. Do you have problems changing clothes in front of friends? mmm. I do around close friends.<br />40. Do you cry in front of friends? yep.<br />41. What kind of first impression do you think you give to people? That I love everyone and get along and accept everyone but I really don't. that or that I get the girls when I really don't at all.<br />42. What's one thing you like to do alone? I am always alone. I like to rock out a lot though.<br />43. What's the worst thing you ever said to someone? I hate you with all my heart and soul and I think you should die and I meant it. Said that to my uncle.<br />44. Are you a giver or a taker? pfft. maybe if I was receiving anything then I would be. but I am a giver all the way.<br />45. What have you stolen before? Nothing ...<br />46. When's the right time to go to the bathroom in front of your significant other? shut up. god.<br />47. Favorite communication method? blah.<br />48. What is one thing you don't leave home without? my cds or my brass knuckles.<br />49. How often do you have sex? AGAIN WITH THE SEX?!<br />50. What's the most painful experience you've ever had? When I found out my dad wasn't such a great guy after all and when I realized ppl were assholes. Blah. Too man to think of. urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:atorturedxlight:66887 2003-01-09T08:25:00Z 2003-01-09T08:25:00Z Last Night Alone .... <img src="http://www.printroom.com/_vti_bin/ViewImage.dll?userid=shatteredbyhope&amp;album_id=124709&amp;image_id=0&amp;courtesy=1" alt="My Drawing" /><br /><br />Haha. What can I say, I got bored.<br />What do you kids think? urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:atorturedxlight:66749 2003-01-09T02:51:50Z 2003-01-09T02:51:50Z I’ll leave the lights down low, <br />So she knows <br />I mean business. <br />And maybe we could talk this over, <br />because I could be your best bet, <br />let alone your worst ex. <br />(And let alone your worst) <br />I want to hate you so bad <br />But I can't (But I can't ) <br />Take this <br />Anymore than you can <br />So honestly, <br />How could you say those things <br />When you know they don't mean anything <br />And you know very well <br />That I can't keep my hands to myself <br />(To myself) <br /><i>I want to hate you so bad <br />But I can't (But I can't) <br />Take this <br />Anymore than you can <br />This is all wrong <br />And it shows <br />Certain things I promised <br />Not to let you know</i> <br />Not to let you know <br />Never let you know <br />Never let you know <br /><i>You've got this silly way <br />Of keeping me on the edge of my seat <br />But you're only counting the clock against the train <br />And I'm miserable <br />You're just getting started <br />I'm miserable <br />And You're just getting started <br /><b>You've got me right where you want me</b></i> <br />(Never told me) <br />Never talk about this again <br />Because I didn't want it to mean that much to me <br />I didn't want it to mean that much to me <br />I didn't want it to mean that much to me <br />I didn't want it to mean that much to me <br />Anyway yeah...<br /><br />yea this is probly my fav. TBS song. well, at least at the moment. :D urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:atorturedxlight:66333 2003-01-07T06:53:42Z 2003-01-07T06:53:42Z Jeremy Locarni - Take Me Walking With You <b> Yea, I wrote this about what had happened to someone lovely and I, read it and let me know what you think, <i>Please</i>? Thanks</b><br /><br /><c>This night's been oh so long how I need to find a way to cute this nauseating disease. Heartbreak has killed me yet again. She spoke the likes. I'll regret forever. Nothing keeps me asleep. It was nice to know you were with me on my side to help me to get through. A favor returned by you. How was he to go about this. Storytime never seemed to bring so much sorrow to her eyes. Hope he has a concience to realize that his charm is being scarred by his torn promises. I am forever in your hands. I will always be here. For crushed flowers never seemed to be this beautiful. I hope the wounds will heal with the water I feed you. I hope we'll meet someday on beautiful blue skies. This spoken word has hit you hard. Not hard enough to knock him down. Yours has hit me like a force feild sheild. So when all is said and done. We'll hopefully find the way that will lead us to this. Where we will find bliss with each one of each others company. Please, hear me out my precious. I won't give up. I'll wait. I'll wait for this to come to me. I know we'll make it through. <b>It's going to be lovely</b>.</c> urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:atorturedxlight:66275 2003-01-06T07:05:34Z 2003-01-06T07:05:34Z <b>Please take me walking with you,</b><br />And our friends can come too,<br />I just hope you'll come through,<br />And take me walking with you<br /><br /><i>I want to stand right next to you<br />and smell your hair while i sing to you</i><br /><b>Just don't tell me that we're through<br />I think i'm falling for you.</b><br /><br /><b>please fucking read these</b> woo. they have been<br />how I am feeling about certain things lately. woo.<br />jeremy if you read this man you rock. haha. or russell<br />if you read this let jeremy know that. urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:atorturedxlight:65908 2003-01-05T12:09:52Z 2003-01-05T12:09:52Z Shit Happens.<br /><br /><br />Well, Forrest old friend, You are damn fucking right about that sir.<br /><br /><br />Fuck. urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:atorturedxlight:65631 2003-01-05T11:49:56Z 2003-01-05T11:49:56Z Keep to the sake (Ha!) You think you're the only ones <br />who show emotion <br />Well I've been known to cry some too <br />A very sad rock-n-roll song <br />A happy ending gone oh so wrong <br />Even the very little things you do <br /><b>You never let me show you just <br />how sad a boy can be <br />It's useless to explain to you <br /><u>You'd probably laugh at me</u></b><br />Now I'm the only one who you're running from <br />What the hell am I to do? <br />Write a sad rock-n-roll song? <br />Tell you everything I did wrong? <br />I'll just forget the little things you do <br /><b>You never let me show you just <br />how sad a boy can be <br />It's useless to explain to you <br />You'd probably laugh at me&lt;/u&gt;</b><br />Now I want you to remember that summer <br />That summer when I drove a million miles <br />To stop you from dying <br />To stop you from crying <br />I held your hand as a part of you died <br />And believe it or not I cried <br />Because one year before a part of me died <br /><b>You never let me show you just <br />how sad a boy can be <br />It's useless to explain to you <br />You'd probably laugh at me&lt;/u&gt;</b><br /><i><b><u>GIRLS DON'T KNOW!</u></b></i> urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:atorturedxlight:65419 2003-01-05T11:07:26Z 2003-01-05T11:07:26Z RrFaBl you showed me what love is, a fairy tale that fades with age. I'd open my wrists to mend this hearts hurt to a bitter end if I dare again. Your starlit silhouette on the side of a car light bright interstate I regret. For every <strike>kiss</strike> I regret, for every day I regret, for every apology that I regret, there's one thousand times the regret for giving you the time of day. I hope this ruins you 'cause I regret every ounce of you... and it seems the rain only brought more smiles and more happiness at that. Its safe to say I won't forget your face, but I can honestly say I <b>won't</b> forgive you urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:atorturedxlight:65200 2003-01-03T22:39:00Z 2003-01-03T22:39:00Z You’ll be accepting my apology <br />For taking things too seriously. <br />Sometimes I’m old enough to keep routines, <br />Sometimes I’m child enough to scream <br />For everything. I broke in two. <br />You’re barely missing me. <br />I’m missing you <br />And everything you do. <br />I really do. <br />I really do. <br />Sure I do. urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:atorturedxlight:64807 2003-01-03T22:24:12Z 2003-01-03T22:24:12Z guk I'm <i>still</i> <strike>waiting</strike> for <b>you</b> to get over this ... urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:atorturedxlight:64098 2003-01-03T09:30:21Z 2003-01-03T09:30:21Z Brand New - Soco Amaretto Lime I'm so upset right now .... I don't get it.<br />What's up with you? Why aren't you talking to me?<br />I'm so confused as to what we are anymore.<br />We need to talk. I miss you. Fuck. I'm calling you but<br />your cell phone is dead or disconnected or something. <br /><br />I hope you read this right now or tonight at least. or real soon. <br />IM when you do and let me know what you think. urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:atorturedxlight:63726 2003-01-03T07:26:16Z 2003-01-03T07:26:16Z To all the girls I've <strike><r>loved</r></strike> <b>GOODBYE!!!</b> <br />...<strike>Thank <underline><r>you</r></underline></strike> for the <b><r>lies</r> !!!</b> urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:atorturedxlight:62547 2002-12-24T15:41:42Z 2002-12-24T15:41:42Z <a href="http://quizilla.com/users/sinistre/quizzes/Which%20really%20ugly%20glendale%20kid%20are%20you%3F/"><img src="http://images.quizilla.com/S/sinistre/1040714203_2222222222.jpg" border="0" alt=""><br> <font size="-1">Which really ugly glendale kid are you?</font></a><br> <font size="-3">brought to you by <a href="http://quizilla.com">Quizilla</a></font><br /><br />damn right I'm a tortured X fattie. I am no longer fat anymore ... cunt. urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:atorturedxlight:62459 2002-12-24T08:24:57Z 2002-12-24T08:24:57Z I SUCK DICK!!! urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:atorturedxlight:62099 2002-12-23T06:17:29Z 2002-12-23T06:17:29Z Nice try buddy, One thing we have around my apartment complex<br />are video cameras and we will be asking to review those videos and <br />they are located in the stairwells and enterance/exit gates so I<br /><b>WILL</b> find who you are. If you do not come and clean this shit up<br />my parents will press charges for vandalism and so will the apartment complex<br />if I notify them. You have 'til 10 am when the office complex opens, to clean this<br />shit up. If you choose not to do so, then it's your ass(es). Charges will be pressed. urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:atorturedxlight:61773 2002-12-20T22:38:29Z 2002-12-20T22:38:29Z <a href="http://quizilla.com/users/shorthairedmetal/quizzes/Which%20one%20of%20my%20hot%20friends%20are%20you%3F/"><img src="http://images.quizilla.com/S/shorthairedmetal/1040381309_testresult.jpg" border="0" alt=""><br> <font size="-1">Which one of my hot friends are you?</font></a><br> <font size="-3">brought to you by <a href="http://quizilla.com">Quizilla</a></font> urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:atorturedxlight:61506 2002-12-19T06:40:40Z 2002-12-19T06:40:40Z <a href="http://quizilla.com/users/girlfromhell/quizzes/What&#39;s%20your%20cool%20factor%20compared%20to%20Tiffany%3F/"><img src="http://images.quizilla.com/G/girlfromhell/1040275888_esultvince.jpg" border="0" alt="vince"><br> <font size="-1">What's your cool factor compared to Tiffany?</font></a><br> <font size="-3">brought to you by <a href="http://quizilla.com">Quizilla</a></font> urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:atorturedxlight:61164 2002-12-19T01:49:18Z 2002-12-19T01:49:18Z I'd never lie to you. <br />Unless I had to I'd do what got to <br />Unless I had to I'd do what got to the truth. <br /><br />'Cause you could slit my throat<br />and with my one last gasping breathe I'd apologize for bleeding on your shirt!